Hey friends! I'm finally taking the time to write again. So much has happened and it wasn't that I didn't want to be transparent, it was just that living it day in and day out took all of my energy. I can't remember where I was when I wrote last, but I'm pretty sure it … Continue reading Finally an Update!
Author: Teri C
I'm just a girl🎶 trying to love God, and people. I'm sharing my journey in the hopes that it might help someone else along their own journey. Topics include things such as Bipolar Disorder, OCD, ADHD, Turners Syndrome, Autism, MDD, *suicide*, church ministry(❤️), God(❤️), becoming a writer, breast cancer, radiation, chemotherapy, and anything else that is significant in my life in that moment. I guess this is my trigger warning...😘 I try to be gentle, but the above list is not an exhaustive one.
Anxiety
Oh what an unwelcome companion is anxiety. I have been having panic attacks again, which are no fun! Mostly related to school, but also related to the fact that I am changing medications yet again. While the Invega has been helping some with getting certain aspects of my mania under control such as my spending, … Continue reading Anxiety
Been a while
Wow, friends, it has certainly been a while. The last time I checked in with everyone on here was May. I'm sorry for the disconnection. It has been a summer I've spent in recovery, of a sort. Recovery from my failures, from my anxiety (though that's not even close to gone), from my over-extension of … Continue reading Been a while
Today’s realization
Don't you hate it when you realize things, finally, that seem like they should have been so obvious all along? I do. Maybe it's because I'm so self-critical that I can't really be happy that I finally realized them, I can only see the time I've lost by NOT realizing them sooner. I'm working on … Continue reading Today’s realization
A Good Day
So far, today is a good day! I woke up a few minutes before my alarm ready to face the day in a pleasant mood. Yesterday, not so much. I was in a lot of pain and super exhausted. With so much going on it is hard to decide what is causing what, and wondering … Continue reading A Good Day
Productive
One of the things I don't like about having bipolar disorder is that it is hard to trust what's going on around me. Sometimes that means that I don't know if I'm being productive because I'm doing well/my medication is working, or if I'm productive because I am manic. I've been productive all morning, scheduling … Continue reading Productive
A New Hope
A beautiful double rainbow at the end of a huge thunderstorm that just popped up this afternoon Isn't it appropriate this Easter weekend that I have found some hope. The new medication I'm taking seems to be working. So far, so good. I'm hopeful that I'll now be able to change the behaviors in my … Continue reading A New Hope
Trying something new
I found myself struggling, HARD. I'm struggling with my increased symptoms. I'm struggling with shame over struggling, but also for not recognizing the fact that I've been struggling for so long. The fact that I have nothing to be ashamed of is hard to hold onto. Like, to the point where I feel ashamed for feeling ashamed. How's that for nuts?! I know it doesn't make sense, but I feel it anyway.
Dying (but not really)
Just wanted to touch base with you all because I would share the ugly, too. I might fail another class or 2. I know I feel that way all the time, but I have a little more than a week to finish 5 weeks of work in one class, 4 weeks of work to do … Continue reading Dying (but not really)
Yikes!
Oh friends, it has been a rough couple of weeks. I'm not going to share some of the details since I don't want to violate the privacy of the people involved, but I will tell you that I have faced things in the last 2 weeks that I've never faced before. People I care about … Continue reading Yikes!
My Real Everyday Life 