Anxiety

Oh what an unwelcome companion is anxiety. I have been having panic attacks again, which are no fun! Mostly related to school, but also related to the fact that I am changing medications yet again. While the Invega has been helping some with getting certain aspects of my mania under control such as my spending, I am still dealing with a large amount of manic rage. So, I talked to my psychiatrist yesterday and he switched my anti-psychotic medication to Vraylar. He also said this should help me lose the weight I gained when I started the Invega, so that is an added plus!

The panic about school has come from wondering if my drive to go back to school and finish my degree was born out of the mania I was experiencing and not on a call from God like I thought at the time. It has really shaken my confidence and faith in myself. It has left me wondering if I can even do it.

I decided to do something that I don’t usually do when I am struck by crippling anxiety – I reached out to my support systems. That alone makes me proud of myself! I called my best friend, who also has a background in psychology, I emailed my prayer group, I messaged a spiritual family friend that I knew could direct me to scriptures that deal with anxiety, and I reached out to my academic adviser and professors to let them know I was struggling and to see what resources are available. One of the things I asked of my prayer group was to send me suggestions for songs that help encourage them when they are feeling overwhelmed or anxious. From that I compiled a playlist on Amazon Music and YouTube to help me combat the anxiety I’m dealing with. Know ahead of time that these are all worship songs, but if you could use some encouragement you should check them out.

Amazon Music: click here
YouTube below

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Much love,
Teri