A Good Day

So far, today is a good day! I woke up a few minutes before my alarm ready to face the day in a pleasant mood. Yesterday, not so much. I was in a lot of pain and super exhausted. With so much going on it is hard to decide what is causing what, and wondering what I can trust.

That’s the hardest part of all of this recent stuff. I was finally in a place where I had learned to trust myself. Trust that I knew what was really happening around me, trust that I was in control of my bipolar disorder, trust that I could be trusted… That’s what I’ve lost in this process. I’m trying to not lose it completely, the trust in myself, but it is hard when I feel blind-sided by the fact that I couldn’t fully trust what I’ve experienced over the last at least 2 years. It’s making me question everything. It also explains some things, which is good, but it highlights the stuff that I could have done better if I had been more self-aware and gotten help sooner. I suspect I actually started struggling before 2 years ago, but I think 2 years ago should have been when I recognized my symptoms.

Have you guys ever struggled with something like that? Where you’ve lost faith or trust in yourself, mental illness related or not. How did you deal with it, or how are you dealing with it? Drop them in the comments below, or feel free to email me. Same with questions.

Thanks for taking this journey with me.

Much Love,
Teri