Having learned nothing except maybe that I like the adrenaline rush that comes with being up against the wire, or that I lack self-discipline, or that I feel driven to self-sabotage (most likely all three).
I am not going to get all my assignments done on time for this week. I spent the day playing on my phone and watching TV yesterday, even though I had set aside the entire day to work on school. I fully intended to turn off the TV after the first show I watched, and I really meant to turn it off after each subsequent one, but I didn’t until almost 1 AM. My DVR had been full of my favorite shows, just waiting to be watched. I couldn’t let them down, could I? Just myself.
For being so strategic in my thinking in other areas, I can’t seem to figure out why I do this; or even how to stop doing this. I don’t know what motivates me to fail. If I could figure it out, I could probably stop failing…
I really should wrap this up since I got up early to try to get some homework done. Oh look, a squirrel…
Much Love, Teri
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